i dont want to say i m tired.
i dont want to say i m sleepy.
i dont want to say that as i study-
i wonder if it is substantial enough
for the promos and fear that all of it will come to
naught.
i dont want to say that i can be a selfish,
mean little prick.

cuz im not.
im not.
im not.
i think.










i ll call this post emoing at midnight =)
emoooooo
sounds like elmo elmo. ^^

and my eye sweeps across the land. ^^











and you shall be the head and not the tail;
the above only and not the below.

dear Lord
i pray that i study with a passion.
not just by sheer doggedness of keeping
from repeating another year of J1 studies!

but by glorifying your name with my results-
to know that the impossible can be possible-
that believers can be on-fire! spiritually and
in their pursuit of studies!
to mug with a purpose and worthy cause;
partially its in leeway with my dreams of making
it COLOSSAL in the coporate world
or research faculties i aspire to build my career in-
but whats the point of believing in my selfish causes?

for your dreams and ways for me are bigger, far
greater than i could ever imagine. =)

okay now i gotta unhinge myself from the hypnotising
computer screen and get my brains to work!
ah-one-two-three-
*LIFTOFFS.

as primitive and unorthodox as this sounds
i m temporarily unavailable for contact via handphone
mrs choong (hod of bio) is holding my handphone hostage
and is unwilling to return till the end of the term,
which is next week!

till then-
i m LIVING LA VIDA LOCA^^
not literally to the lyrics of Ricky Martins Best Hits-
but still. =)

if only i could be as passionate about
my chemistry SPA as
my mother's delicious japanese oden.

ladles of hot sweet broth
boiled to rich perfection with stewed carrots
radishes, tofu, eggs and crabmeat..
the thick flavour always pleasantly light
to those of a delicate palate...
topped with lashes of aromatic garnishes-
on a bowl of plain white rice.

i can see that the only feasible option left
is to engorge on laxatives after eating, cuz
exercise is only gonna develop muscles-
which actually convert back to fats if you re lazy.
and studies have shown that those with smaller
muscles can take pressure and stress better than
those of muscular built!

decisions, decisions. =)
oh on the bright side ^^
i ve been thinking abt my theory that
if God is Everywhere- so must be His presence!
so really if we try to attune ourselves to it
instead of stay in our little worry bubbles of
daily troubles
we would blown away by His presence!

im also positive that it can be strong enough
to feel cuz i m certain i felt Him hold my hand
during praise and worship,
like my fist just started closing of its own accord!
it sounds scary, but it really made me very happy!
cuz this is further proof to me (doubting thomas)
that my God is very Real and tangible!
hmmm God is Amazing no? =D
hahahahas

its strange how your world can change,
even momentarily, in a second.
i ve just spent about 30 minutes talking
with a complete stranger on msn.

Pete and Michael are the best!! says:
our school recently implemented this thing called LIP
Pete and Michael are the best!! says:
life issue project
Pete and Michael are the best!! says:
so basically the school is encouraging students to be more open minded and work on issues which are pertinent yet seldom talked about
Pete and Michael are the best!! says:
for example, abortion, pre maritial sex, pornography, etc
so my group is actually doing sort of a study
Pete and Michael are the best!! says:
difference between american teenage girls and asian teenage girls
Pete and Michael are the best!! says:
so we're investigating differences in mindsets, habits, clothing, physical, hobbies etc
Pete and Michael are the best!! says:
and we're supposed to get the help from different people
Pete and Michael are the best!! says:
our dateline is really near, so we started adding people
Pete and Michael are the best!! says:
hope u wun mind

yupps. apparently it was because

Pete and Michael are the best!! says:
basically, i come from a poor family
Pete and Michael are the best!! says:
i've always wanted to study Cambridge law
Pete and Michael are the best!! says:
but it's hard to get scholarshipv
Pete and Michael are the best!! says:
especially since my results aren't veri good
Pete and Michael are the best!! says:
and this project is a competition
Pete and Michael are the best!! says:
like first i'm competing within the class
Pete and Michael are the best!! says:
then represent school
Pete and Michael are the best!! says:
then state
Pete and Michael are the best!! says:
etc
Pete and Michael are the best!! says:
so if i win it, it would boost my portfolio, and increase my chances of getting the scholarship, and fulfilling my dream
Pete and Michael are the best!! says:
yeah it’s very important to me..
Pete and Michael are the best!! says:
I need the scholarship
Pete and Michael are the best!! says:
I need the job
Pete and Michael are the best!! says:
I need the money
Pete and Michael are the best!! says:
Cos I need to raise my family..
Pete and Michael are the best!! says:
So I hope you can help me to fulfill my dream. Haha. You can make a difference!

unfortunately i blocked the person in the end- but still./
it was leading to a rather sensitive topic;
totally unrelated
to the person of course- and this is definitely
an experience i wont be forgetting so easily. =)
and i just really want to
THANK YOU JEHOVAH JIREH
MY PROVIDER GOD
what a wonderfully rich life i have.
what a uber blessed life i lead.

mm.
sugar rush!!
shared a mars chocolate bar ^^ -itsgood!!
hahahas
DCPIP will not be the death of me.
non.
energy generated from chemiosmosis
actively transports the H+protons from the stroma
into the thylakoid space across the ATP synthase,
generating an electrochemical gradient along the
thylakoid membrane. so its the diffusion of H+ back
to the gel-like matrix that ensures ATP ( Adenosine
Triphosphate) formation from ADP and inorganic phosphate?

going down downn the slippery slope of the
Electron Transport Chain.
with any luck,the NADPH +H+ formed will only conceive
to generate the Triose Phosphate i need.
although 5/6 is going to be converted back to Rubisco.
or Ribulose Biphosphate?

ILOVEBIOLOGY.

ethereal in her whispering silver-grey
a soft lingering caress
stroking the foreheads of many a child
lulled back and forth
and deep in sleep
pale moonlight reassuring
such gentle beauty in the strong dark night
bringing
sweet promises of tomorrow
and a brand new day.

*colourfulexpletivesofchoice*

hahahahas PINKPINK!
BRIGHTGREENYELLOWMAROON!!

bzzzz. i m not cussing!!
ahahahas XD

lots of random things happened today-
read a book abt decision making, an
ADAMS comic (dogbert!) and abt 5 chapters
of a romance teen fiction with vampires.
plus
listened to 2 of pastor kong's sermons; on
ANTINOMIANISM!
then i bought a Soft Lime Green and Orange pen
from! Popular! yes i m pleased =)

oh and met jasmine, janet and veronica
in the library! walked with my sister through
the TP National Park, had peanut butter sandwiches
for lunch!
and during dinner
i almost walked into the mens toilet-
actually i did! till my sisters started screaming-
hysterically so;
andd i ate soft bone deep-fried chicken
in crystal jade (pleasedonotorderthat)
its like eating fried fat with CARTILAGE-
though i loved the mushroom platter and
mellow shrimp egg-drop soup ^^
and yess i m supposed to be finishing EO-
then doing Prayer!

i pray that i ll have discipline, as a person
then maybe i ll stop slacking so much =)

can i pray for the spirit of mugged-ness?

i loved walking along the airport today,
wishing i could fly away.

specifically, a reprieve of five days at
Hokkaido, Japan in traditional accomodation
and amenities, with hot spring baths a MUST.

then i ll come back in time for more mugging. =)
LORD WITH 49 DAYS TO PROMOS
MY TRUST IN YOU MUST NOT FALTER!!

verydisappointedwithGP-but i thank You for letting
me learn from my mistakes now then LATER.

MY 36 HOUR MISSION:
1. no more snacks between and after meals.
2. 15 hour study rule.
3. Prayer for at least 15 minutes a day.
4. understand vectors I and II
5. and overcome fear of enthalpy calculations

another week has flew by
with a lingering scent of pleasant times,
sweet memories-
none spared for reminscising and regret;
time seemed a curious pendulum, fuelled by
momentum, unable to stop-

and i can only hope i ve made full use of mine. =)